Asher is such a good boy, yet at times I can't figure him out. There are times when I know that he is hungry, but he's so upset or restless that he doesn't stay on and we re-latch about 8 times before I give up and make him wait to try again on the other side. Nursing has been so hard for me. I don't think I know of anyone who has had a perfect experience nursing though. If you have please don't tell me because I might just cry while hugging my chest and rocking back and forth. I have Mastitis for the THIRD time now and if I get it again I'm done with nursing. I feel so guilty thinking that and desiring that, but having sore boobs and running a high fever while taking care of a baby is not fun! Especially when there is a kitchen full of dishes to do. I wonder if I was even made for nursing at times because of all the trouble we've had. About 3 weeks ago Asher finally started opening his mouth the latch on! We've been stuck using the inconvenient nipple shield which is just a pain to wash and have on hand at all times. I just have to remind myself that this is just a stage in my life right now and that soon enough I'll have my body back until I decide to have another kid. Speaking of which, I'm all for spacing the kiddos out as much as I can...I think I need a break between each baby.
Anyway, I've had so many problems with my body since having the baby and I'm just done with it all. I want to new back, new boobs, and I can't wait to lose weight (I've been stuck for the past while and I can't seem to lose anything these days).
Surprisingly that little lump in my throat is gone...venting is good for the soul. :)
Love this pic below even though it's got too much depth of field fuzz on his face!