So, this is one of those posts where I get all philosophical. Okay, I'm really not that smart, but I have been doing a lot of thinking lately about my life, friends, and basically my goals and ambitions for the future.
Today, especially, I'm feeling really sad about not going back to work. I feel like a phase of my life has ended and that there is no turning back. This is kind of an odd feeling to me because I complained a lot about my job, how busy I was, never being able to feel like I was ever caught up, kids acting up at times, and waking up at dark thirty just to get to work on time. Aside from all of my complaining I genuinely loved my job. I loved the kids, my friends, the office ladies, my bosses, the random things that would happen when it snowed, the learning...oh, how I love to learn and read and then teach others what I've learned even if I feel like I taught X concept in the worst way possible. I was never afraid to admit that I didn't know everything to my students, in fact I loved that they knew that I was still learning. I loved being and feeling like a professional...I was a professional and I worked dang hard in school to make it happen! :) Yup, I'm proud that I made sacrifices in my life in order to move myself forward. I may not have know Spanish the best, or known the best teaching methods but I feel like I did a decent job at what I did and I would gladly take an opportunity to further my education and go back to teaching if/when it may present itself.
Now that I'm moving on from working full-time outside of my home I'm focusing on my family. I feel so much joy when I think about all of the things I'll get to do with Asher and for Shem now that I'm home. Since becoming a mom I've learned that if something doesn't get done around the house right away it's fine. I don't have to be perfect, but mostly just keep taking care of the things that matter most and Asher pretty much is at the top of that list right next to taking care of myself. I'm hoping that I won't be a bum and waste time in the usual ways (I'll be the first to admit that facebook and blogs distract me a lot during the day) and I do want to keep moving forward. Things are going to be different around my home and I'm hoping that where Shem and I used to split a lot of the work I'll be able to take over. I'm hoping that this school year will be less stressful for him since I'll be taking care of most things around the house.
I'm also going to get my body in shape again. I have time now! And hopefully Asher and I find a jogging stroller soon that we like so that we can get out and run during the week. I have some personal goals to get really good at yoga and in April my friend Julie and I are going to run a 1/2 marathon together! All I have to do is start running now. :) I'm at a point where I feel like my body is ready to be used again and it feels great to be ready to move.
I'm also excited to focus more on making and building some friendships. In the past I've felt like I didn't have any friends at church and I blamed it on being at work all day. Turns out that I had friends at work! I also feel like I have a tendency to not let people into my life for a lot of dumb reasons; my house is too small, we don't have toys, I work all day long, we don't have kids, my house is dirty, I'm still in my pajamas, etc. The only person that I have truly let into my life and who knows me better than anyone has been Shem. He made it so easy for me to open up and to truly be myself (turns out I'm really a goofy girl and I think of really weird things). I know what a blessing a few girlfriends, or even a best friend can be to a married gal, so it's time to let people into my life...my very imperfect life, but I promise I am kind of cool...in a totally geeky and weird-humored kind of way.
Things are changing, I've changed and life is going to be great...different, but great.
My life pretty much is my kid now, so therefore the blog is about the kid as well. :) Today, while making breakfast, Asher decided to turn a full 180 degrees on his play mat in order to see himself in the mirror! He loves to swat at it, rattle the monkey (which he never lets go of), and stare at himself! So cute! My baby is growing up and learning sooo much...when I'm not looking. How does anyone even let their kids go off to school!? The thought of my child learning so much without me watching is kind of hard to bear. I want to be there with him to see all that he does and learns.
It's true. Sometimes moms need to get stuff done, so we have toys.
Asher likes his play mat. He is learning to grab and is exploring the world around him more through touch and sight. In fact, he is beginning to see me from a distance. Not so cool when you want him to forget you and fall asleep, but oh so sweet when you're cooking dinner and you want him to see you from the other room when you call his name.
He loves his hands. He loves to put them in his mouth, whole fist and all, and then suck on them like I haven't fed him in the past 24 hours.
He's very social and apparently loves to charm perfect strangers! The ladies who check us out from Costco got him to giggle for them...he hasn't even giggled for Shem or I yet!
We love our little man and we can't believe that he is 3 months old already!
The best decision of my life was deciding to marry my best friend four years ago. I'm so blessed to have such a handy, handsome, helpful, hard-working, and loving guy as my husband. And he's even the best daddy ever to our son...love that times infinity! I couldn't have done any better had I chosen to not marry a Thompson!